Lots of ups and downs through out 2014.
Many happy things happened due to hard work as well as being blessed by Allah.
But the happiness can't cheer me up coz of one issue.
Really hope Allah will help me to overcome this. I cant even cry when I look at those pictures. I am not shocked just I keep telling my self.. how could U.
I try my best to be a good mother and wife to the kids n him. I try my best to be a good daughter, daughter in laws and siblings.
I keep in my mind I have to keep everyone around me to be happy n safe.
I dont know how to express it in words. I also cant express it in action. A person that keep everything to oneself.
I cant hate him as he is my only love. The one that I love for more than 15 years.. but how could he do this to me.
I realize... the more you love someone, you will hurt more.. deeper day by day.
I will try to switch my love to the Only One. Hopefully I will meet him in Jannah.
